2 Timothy 1:7 (ESV)

“for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.”

“Let go and let God.”

These were the first few words out of the yoga instructor’s mouth this morning. Such simple words for such a seemingly impossible task.

”Complete Yoga” is a class offered by Faith Fuzed Fitness, and I’mI’m ashamed to say this is the first time I have taken this class. It started with the Complete Target, an assessment that indicates where you are in spirit, soul, and body. My affirmation for the morning was, “my thoughts are godly thoughts.” Ha! Through almost the entire class, my thoughts were far less than godly! I struggled, “Come on, God! Give me this amazing spiritual moment, help me to be new and refreshed!” That moment never came. The next thing I knew, I was in the car headed home, crying, and fighting with my husband.

In moments of failure, turn to God.

I felt like a failure, a failure as a wife and Christian. When I got home, I wanted to write; I read over the verse I chose for the class 2 Timothy 1:7 ”For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” I initially chose this verse because of the three words, “power” and “sound mind.” But the one I skipped over was “fear” I’mI’m not scared, was I? I recalled walking into class, wanting to cry before the instructor even began to speak. I forced myself to “suck it up,” and my heart had hardened the remainder of the class. “Let go and let God.” was the last thing I wanted to do. Why? Why is it so hard to let God do His work in and through me? Because of FEAR, I develop a lump in my throat when I think about opening up my feelings to anyone. I cringe when I’mI’m called out in a public place. My heart drops when I’mI’m asked to speak on stage. But God puts us in these uncomfortable situations to step out in faith and to deepen our relationship with Him. In every single one of these situations that I feel are uncomfortable is an excellent opportunity to share His goodness and Love. Isaiah 35:4 says, ”Say to those who have an anxious heart, “Be strong; fear not! Behold, your God will come with a vengeance, with recompense of God. He will come and save you.”

Prayer:

“Let go and let God.” are words I will speak more often. I pray we stop being a people who live in fear and start living and clinging to God’sGod’s word. May the Lord help us know we are a spirit of power, Love, and self-discipline.

Let this song by Matt Hammitt be an inspiration to surrender to God.